A fond farewell to a place called Home

I've been meaning to write this for a good while now, not quite sure why it's taken me this long.

My birthday was a little strange for me this year. Not in the sense that my age affected me or anything like that. In fact although I joke that I'm 21 for the past 8 years, as I know I am 29 and I don't look anything like it. In fact, I love the fact that I am 30 next year.

It was strange for me as my Mum handed back to the keys to a home that I lived in for 21 years. Almost to the day. That home holds many memories for me, most of which were great. I remember going to have a look at the place and liking it, and realising that after a time in mine and my sisters' lives which was just difficult. I'm not sure how sis remembers things, but for a while it was not plain sailing.

That house to me symbolises a struggle to get basic things for us to live, but at the same time relief as I felt my Mum relax and become her happy self again. We shared a room for a few weeks and that was one of my fondest memories of the flat. It is a symbol of growing up, emancipation from a turbulent childhoot before we moved in as well as fond memories of many celebrations and laughter. If you came to my home you would know about the Happy Birthday banner that was up for nine years without a break or the Laura/kangaroo picture on her door which makes me smile now as that's the sort of crazy vibe we had in that place.

Sharing a room with my sister for a couple years until Mum had enough of my tantrums and fights with sis and separated us.

I did shed a tear when I was there for the last time, and I did have to be ruthless with leaving but I will always treasure those bricks and mortar forever. For three women, and for a time a small boy it was our home and symbolised love and comfort.

Freeness: Johnta Austin feat Luda!

Track is called "Can't live without you"

I feel this, can't live without Luda either :D Intensity of voice. Feeling the whole love ish. I'd happily help him get over her .... Johnta sounds dope too. Flasetto on point in places. Not my fav track of his but, hey. Luda's voice on the other hand ..... hmmmmmm .......

Enough! Linkage Check the lyrics.

Busta's. Back. Bitches. Alliteration. Ya dig?

Yes man, been waiting for a Bussa Bussa album forever it seems. Mixtapes are always dope, but we want the essence of Busta. And my prayers will be answered next week.

Til then though, he is dropping a pre-release mixtape I'm guessing to warm us up. I LOVE this dude. Should be dropping tomorrow so cop dat sh*t.

New track from Queen Latifah

Track called Chainzzzz. Rocky/poppy track. I like it. Cop it. Now, like.

Linkage > HERE

Man, this had me tripping for a second

Will.I.Am doing something so good and remembers his Mum (I'm English so I'm spelling it the correct way :p). All that money and he is humble to remember his roots and help others. Nice.

Shameless pluggage

I have to plug a good friend of mine DJ Bruce Wayne and his promo video.

Used to work with him as a guest on his show once a month back in the day and am a huge fan of his in general as he is a true DJ, not one of the CD DJ's. He can scratch and mix on vinyl.

Anyway, please watch the vid, subscribe to him on iTunes with his Iron Rap Show, or find him on Bang Radio and in the clubs.

Peace.

Bruce Wayne Promo Vid

Song for the Day: 9 to 5

It seems like these days all I do is work, I've had NO holiday in the year I've worked at this job, and I'm starting to get cabin fever. Thought I'd post this before I get ready for, you guessed it - work. The woman that defies all laws of Gravity. Gotta love me some Dolly.

Song for the Day: Second Round Knockout

I had to post this after the Hatton/Pacquiao fight.

Tuesday: Take out the Trash Day

Today has been a day of waste. When I say waste I'm not talking rubbish bins, as I took mine out today as Tuesday is rubbish collection day on my road.

I'm talking about waste as in the way people are conducting themselves and the crap that comes out of their mouths.

I have had many dealings with this in the past; those "friends" who aren't giving u constructive criticism or speaking the truth, the people that don't want to see you succeed especially when their life isn't where they want it to be at that time.

Damn promoters. Now I had to include you today as my inbox has to now be cleared daily from ur crap. There are a handful amongst the scores of waste promoters. The good promoters only need to message me once a week, not daily. They don't need gimmicks.

Waste men and women who will chat any mess to get what they want. You particularly annoy me. I am weeding you out slowly, if you don't see my profile page anymore, try know I deliberately deleted you. Be under no illusion - my wate detector is up on "Max" and you've been found out.

It's not about me calling names or even discussing you with anyone. I have no time for that. I may talk a lot, but I am a woman more of action.

ladies and gentlemen, please don't let these people prevent you from going abour your daily life. Take the waste out with as little fuss or conversation, and put them out to be collected by the binmen. Mentally and physically it does you no favours keeping them around you.

Tuesday is my rubbish collection, when is yours?

Song of the Day: You Put A Smile On My Face

Put a smile on your face today and watch this video :)

Swine Flu? Let's get things into perspective here!

"90 people get swine flu & everybody wants 2 wear surgical masks. 1 million people have AIDS & STILL people refuse 2 wear condoms."

I have seen this statement in many status' the past few days and I was thinking about this on the train this morning as I took my son to school. And the more I think about it, the more it set off alarm bells in my head.

I remember reading somewhere that there has been a rapid increase in the number of cases of the AIDS and HIV infections in the past year alone, many of those being in the Capital. Even just from me having a quick look for statistics, the majority of the articles are heavily weighed towards Africa. This gives people reading these papers/publications a false impression that its 'over there' and not in fact in the UK when it is thought that there are around 77,000 people here with the virus (HIV) and a further 20,000 people who don't even know they are infected.

What the hell is wrong with us?! We should not be blind to this, nor should we be sheep and follow others and take these articles at face value. There is a crisis in the UK right now. The Black population in London alone are the biggest proportion of the community who are contracting both HIV and AIDS and this is down to childish attitudes, ignorance by thinking it is more connected with gay men and women, and also not being responsible enough to get tested regularly for fear of looking 'slack' I wish I could find these figures, but for now you will have to believe me when I say that I believe this to be true.

I'm hearing all sorts of foolishness surrounding this fabricated 'pandemic' of swine flu. Yes, it has now apparently reached the shores of the UK and for some of us close to home in South London, but it is a bad case of the flu where there is a vaccination against it. We know there is probably a cure for AIDS and the HIV virus out there, until we get it we need to ensure we aren't put in the position to contract it in the first place!

At this point, we need to be concerning ourselves with being safe while having sexual contact. Regardless of if you are in a stable relationship, as people do cheat. Just means that you should be tested less regularly than those who are not in a stable relationship.

Please, PLEASE get yourselves tested regularly wear condoms and just look after your bodies. We spend more time looking into the specifications of our phones and flat screen televisions than we do in regards to going to the clinic or doctor. How sad is this?

A few minutes of being uncomfortable versus a lifetime of drugs and doctors appointments? Think about it. 

I survived ...... just

I've had an eventful few weeks, I must say. My 29th birthday which I wasn't going to celebrate due to an inmpending dissertation dealine went well with friends and family breaking bread with me.

The dissertation nearly sending me into meltdown. I finished it and it was submitted earlier than the Friday deadline. Relief and tiredness.

Thinking about a change of job to be able to get my weekends back with my family. Planning holidays abroad to see my friends and to get a break.

Realising the guy I thought was someone I would explore the possibility of chilling with ended up not being that once the smoke cleared.

I even won a few quid on the Lottery and tickets to Kojos Comedy Funhouse, which was a nice evening out. so its been a strange and mixed few weeks a cliched emotional rollercoaster if you will.

The end of this journey was soured by one stupid individual who took it on himself to racially abuse me circa 1972 style yesterday which was more of a surprise than anything. But for some reason, I was steered from lashing back at him. I think the man upstairs must have pulled me away from that as I am usually the first to retaliate.

what I did take away from that though was that I am stronger than I thought. The past few weeks in fact have. I can cope with high pressure situations (albeit I did get really freaked out a few days before hand in) but I survived and it wasnt as bad as I thought at the time. Something I will try and remember when I face my next hurdle which is inevitably round the corner.